Stress and my Future

I can't tell you how stressed I am. I take step 2 boards in 4 weeks and haven't studied that much as of yet..but I am trying to tell myself that I still have FOUR weeks. Right? I am also trying to plan my wedding which is in 2 months. This is a lot of stuff to do. On top of that I am trying to figure out my next year, calling and emailing residencies all day. It is hard! I wish I had OB rotations set up where I want to do but that is harder done than said. Praying that I at least hear from a couple programs this week. I also am trying to figure out my mandatory rotations for next year too. All of this with NO help sucks! Needless to say my apartment is disgusting..I don't care about laundry or the dishes when I get home.

I did apply to my DO OB programs this weekend, which is scary and exciting at the same time. I will be applying to MD OB programs and MD FM-Women's Health residencies. I really hope it works out..I really want to do OB at this point..I think I made that clear in my personal statement, which I hope they read.

Why do things tend to happen all at once? I think God is just testing me to see how much weight I can handle on my shoulders..I know I can do it though!

Officially a Fourth year!

So, it is now about 10 months until I graduate and get the letters D.O. after my name. This is both exciting and scary! Hoping I learn enough in the next ten months to make me feel a lot less nervous about being in charge of people's lives!

My peds rotation kind of did end up changing things. My rankings of residencies are still OB as number one but peds is definitely a close second. I liked working with the kids and think I would enjoy inpatient, besides you have a much better lifestyle. It sucks thinking about lifestyle but you have to! I feel bad because I am so passionate about Ob and women's health issues that I don't want to leave it behind. I guess we will just see what happens. I am going to apply to both programs and see what happens.

I am now on anesthesiology and it is so boring! It isn't for me at all but at least I am getting a lot of practice with intubating and placing I.V.s. Today, when we went to do an epidural I just wanted to stay on the OB floor. I wish I could have said, "Hey anesthesiology doc, I know it is my first day but can I abandon your service and just stay here!". We even went and did a bolus on a patient who was about to deliver and my OB preceptor was the doc..I wanted to stay with him so bad it hurt walking out of the room! Overall, it was a good day though! I have a night of reading about anesthesiology drugs in front of me though because I know nothing about them really, their mechanisms especially. I also got pimped all day on the brachial plexus, what the crap! I haven't even really looked at that since studying for step 1. Looks like I will have a fun night tonight!

Wedding plans are coming together (kinda!). I have to order flowers and figure out the menu, but that is about it. I think I have a photographer, which I wasn't planning in the beginning but decided I really need to have pictures so I am going to work it in somehow. I also need to plan a weekend to pick up my bf's suit and my dress. Thinking about wedding stuff right now, I need to move my ring to a safer spot since I can't wear it on this rotation. As of right now, we can't do a honeymoon which sucks but it is hard when I have a rotation in Portland starting the week after..hmm.

So, right now it is off to studying, trying to schedule rotations (btw trying to set up OB audition rotations is so hard!!!), and figuring out a budget for the next year.