so sweet

http://josevillablog.com/2010/04/mary-and-leo-married-60-years/

Say it ain't so...

A forth year today told me she matched into Ob/Gyn. Is it bad that after she said this I thought of saying "really? I wouldn't want you as my ob..you are so, well, unfriendly!"? Eek. I can just see her being very forceful with her patients but maybe I am so wrong because I only see one side of her, maybe, she is completely different with her patients. Hmmm...I guess we all end up doing what we are supposed to do? right? I AM SO SCARED ABOUT THIS!

Confusion

I pretty much have always been stuck on OB/GYN. I really love it and I think it is what I want to do, however, I am having a lot of problems with it right now. It is hard to decide when everything you read or hear is NOT to do it. Is it really going to be that difficult? I don't know right now if I should do it now. There are other things I am interested in, so maybe I should do one of those. It is really stressful right now! I think if I did Ob/Gyn I would be a great advocate for women and their births. However, I am nervous about being on call everyday all day and about the malpractice. Is that why they say don't do Ob/Gyn? Why is this so difficult? Why can't I know 100% what I want to do with my life? Ugh

On other news, this mine explosion is not so far from me and it is really rocking the community. I feel really bad for the miners and their families and am keeping them in my thoughts and prayers!

Hooray

I am in my third week of psych..and I don't mind it! I got to watch ECT today and tomorrow I get to 'push the button'. eek!

I want to say a big yay! MY fiance's brother and his wife had their baby early this morning..haven't heard much about the delivery yet though! Juniper Evelyn Berger

Oh Boy

Finally on a rotation where I can just chill..Psych! It is really easy and laid back. Even though I am not doing much or learning anything for that matter, I think this rotation was much needed. I have so much on my plate right now so it is nice to have the time to figure things out.

Planning the wedding is going along slowly but I feel okay about everything. Jeremiah is really helping with everything so that is nice. It is great that both of us our involved.

Planning next year out is completely opposite. I am trying to figure out what rotations to do and where. I really like OB/GYN of course but now am second guessing my decision based on all the factors you have to consider! i.e. residency life, lifestyle after graduating, money, ability to have a family and children, and the list goes on. I have started researching being a Laborist..who knows?? If I don't do OB what should I do for a living? I would like to think about peds but really I don't think I would be able to pay back my student loans that well. This is such a hard decision. I just don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life that will make me happy..it isn't like I can just switch!

At least it is warm outside so I can take long walks to figure this stuff out in my head...ha!

I've made it...almost

ONE MORE DAY LEFT..of internal med! I am so happy that it is almost over because I really can't take it anymore. I feel like I have been on fam med for another 8 weeks and it is killing me. It isn't that I don't like family med, it is just that I am so gosh darn bored. Also, my doctor is kind of an ass but I guess you will get that on rotations. Hmm...I am also deciding I hate 'medicine'..i.e. taking care of people who just have HTN, diabetes or sinus infections...now a pregnant woman with HTN that is a different story lol!

I am starting psych next..in the psych ward woooo. It should be okay I hope! I am soo not into psych at all.

Signed up for another ob rotation for my elective in May. Very excited about it! I am picking what residency programs I am looking at now and am busy setting up rotations for next year. This is really hard, esp when you get no direction from your school.

umm..yeah

http://abc.go.com/shows/jamie-olivers-food-revolution

This I hope is going to be good but I really don't know. I actually live here (well, in West Virginia at least) which is sad. It is so true that people here are so unhealthy! Ohhh West Virginia. I just hope the show doesn't play up all those stereotypes out there about wvers.