Long time no post...

So I got married! Three weeks ago..it was very exciting, laid back and a lot of fun.

In other news, I am currently living in Portland, Maine for the month doing a NICU rotation. It is pretty much awesome! I love being with the babies all day, however, it is a hard rotation with long hours and sad stories. I am in the highest level NICU and we have some very sick babies, which is stressful and scary. My first day I was given the responsibility of caring for two of the babies, which made me so nervous since I had no idea what I was doing. However, my babies behaved themselves and I had a good day. The next day they gave me a baby on a vent. Ahh! The day was kinda nuts but it went fine. Since then, I have been able to see the birth of a 25 week old girl, 25 week old twins, a 27 week old boy and several 34 week kids. I can't believe how small the 25 week babies are! It is crazy. Their feet are about an inch long and they weight about 14 ounces! My smallest babe was a little over 2 lbs when I got him but now he is much larger (a whole 3 lbs!). He is adorable and I just want to give him kisses. All of this scares the crap out of me and makes me very nervous to have my own babies. It also makes me question going into ob/gyn. Hmmm....

I have had a few interviews for ob/gyn and one for fm. I have a lot more interviews to go. I keep running through things in my head..should I go into ob/gyn or should I go into fm and have a better lifestyle, a better chance to have a good family life, and be able to do ob and peds in my practice? I am very confused and feel like I have run out of time. I am not sure what to do! I should have just applied to FM residencies in places I might want to live. Dangit! Although, I think I would still be happy matching OB. What should I do? I am so passionate about OB but I want to have a good life too....shoot.

Woohoo

I got my first interview for an OB program!! So excited!!!!

I have one more week of my OMT rotation..I feel like I am getting my hands back which is awesome. I also did some acupuncture this week! How exciting!

D-day

I take my boards tomorrow. I feel like vomiting.

Five More Days

I have five more days until I take my Step 2 boards. I am ready to get it over with but am SO nervous. I am taking a practice test tomorrow to decide if I want to push it back or not. AHHH. I am just frustrated with myself. Why do I put everything off till the last second! I guess I like to stress myself out!

On another note, I found a new apartment for Jeremiah and I to move into after we get married. It is only two doors down from my current apartment (same building, same floor), which I find amusing. I currently live in a studio apartment, which would be doable for us, however, I would rather have a little more space if available. This apartment came open on Saturday down the hall and I told the landlord I wanted it on Sunday. It is a little bit more expensive and has a living room, dinning room and a bedroom! Considering I only have one room right now, we are both really excited to have more room. Jeremiah is especially happy since this now means he can bring some of his furniture with him. We also have room for visitors! Exciting stuff I tell ya!

PS. I read a blog called pacing the panic room. It is amazing and I always enjoy it. Anyways this video was just posted and it is Awesome!

http://vimeo.com/14235967

Step 2

Right now, I am busy studying for step 2 boards. It is rough! I trying my best to do 8 hour days but it is hard..and I really am ending up doing 5 hour days. I feel exhausted already and still have a little over a week left. I am nailing down my schedule for the fall which is nice though! I am hoping I end up getting an ob rotation in Columbus, even though it will be past interview dates. So far I am going to Portland Maine, Madison Wisconsin, and Columbus? Then I will be in Charleston the rest of the time.

Well..enough break, back to studying for me! Hoping I don't stay up as late as I have been (studying til 4am doesn't make sense for anyone!)

Boards..once again

I have three weeks till Boards..freaking out!

I just read a article on how Gisele Bundchen had a water birth at home. In the article, she also stated how birth didn't hurt. It is pretty neat to hear a celebrity, especially some big fancy supermodel, say those things about her birth. She also says that she thinks it should be a world wide law that women have to breast feed till their baby is at least 6 months old. I wish more people thought like that...hopefully when I am an OB I'll be able to convince some of my patients!

Stress and my Future

I can't tell you how stressed I am. I take step 2 boards in 4 weeks and haven't studied that much as of yet..but I am trying to tell myself that I still have FOUR weeks. Right? I am also trying to plan my wedding which is in 2 months. This is a lot of stuff to do. On top of that I am trying to figure out my next year, calling and emailing residencies all day. It is hard! I wish I had OB rotations set up where I want to do but that is harder done than said. Praying that I at least hear from a couple programs this week. I also am trying to figure out my mandatory rotations for next year too. All of this with NO help sucks! Needless to say my apartment is disgusting..I don't care about laundry or the dishes when I get home.

I did apply to my DO OB programs this weekend, which is scary and exciting at the same time. I will be applying to MD OB programs and MD FM-Women's Health residencies. I really hope it works out..I really want to do OB at this point..I think I made that clear in my personal statement, which I hope they read.

Why do things tend to happen all at once? I think God is just testing me to see how much weight I can handle on my shoulders..I know I can do it though!